God, I wish I had the internet when I was 16. I see young people getting so much support when I go to different online trans forums and pages. I would know that the things that I used to think about being trans are not true and there isn't only one way to be trans. Walking home from the shrink who rejected me I wracked my brain trying to figure out what I did/said wrong. That was the '80s then and maybe the experts thought wrong, I guess. I've heard of people running into the same stereotypes in mental health professionals even today.
Here are some things that I used to think about FTM transgendered/transsexual people including myself:
- An FTM cannot have an orgasm without transition
- An FTM cannot be attracted to men
- An FTM is disgusted by his female parts and cannot enjoy them
- An FTM would never be happy to be pregnant.
- An FTM would never go and get a gynecological exam
There are probably more and I'm not saying that my experience is everyone's experience, but the fact that I am attracted to men, enjoy sex, was very happy to carry my son and I do (although reluctantly) take care of my reproductive health does not mean that I am not transgendered.
I really should try to find a therapist, but I am so afraid of that. I've looked a bit and I haven't been able to find a psychologist who openly specializes in gender therapy. Plus my insurance would only cover a few appointments. I can't ever see me telling my doctor and I asked for the to send me to the mental health and she didn't. She seems to think that drugs are the answer to everything.
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